I wanted to share this with you all. It's a screen shot I took of a comment by Skado. Maybe some of you saw it, maybe some didn't. These words are now important to me. @Skado I hope you don't mind me sharing but I just love too much what you said. Thank you for these words! I've had a shitty decade. And a few more years before that decade. I'm not gonna get into details about how shitty my life has been but I'm angry at myself for allowing things to happen. A lot of the shit I'm in is my fault. I've dealt with depression, low self esteem and worse. But I always tried to work on it and not let it take control over my life. I am working on being happy regardless of my less than ideal situation (I have been separated for years but I live in the same house with the ex in separate bedrooms and sometimes I have to keep myself from hurting him) and I want it all to change. I fooled myself into thinking I was happy by denial, adaptation and disconnecting myself. I am working to find happiness in the areas of my life that need it and I'm not going to wait until I have the "right conditions" to be happy! Jeebus do I sound cheesy hahahaha I never lose my sense of humor