Do you mean the god of the gaps?

"I get "god shots" at times in my life that anyone else would explain them supernatural but I blow it off as coincidence."

Can you explain what you mean here? You've lost me on this one. Thanks.

As far as physicality is concerned, we are relatively tiny specks on a small rock ball with space around us filled with larger stars and structures. Even on Earth there are things bigger than us, like the whales. I don’t think we are particularly significant.

We are the actual gods..any supernatural things you see happening are from YOU.

Physics indicates that we are participating in creating our own universes/reality.

“I regard consciousness as fundamental and matter as derivative from consciousness." – Max Planck, theoretical physicist who originated quantum theory, 1918 Nobel Prize in Physics

There is nothing wrong in saying you are uncertain. We are all looking for the big answers to whether there is anything else or not. So far I have not seen any evidence that there is anything else beyond this life, but that could change if proof presented itself. It is really only religious people who talk of certainty, the certainty that God exists, but they can never show any evidence for this assertion so it renders it invalid.

you want to believe you are not the end all to your decisions? you mean you want to believe there is some purpose to it all, or you want to believe that there is a guiding force behind some of it?

it is natural to seek agency, it's a survival mechanism. And we know that ordered and structured things are created by minds, so when we see order and structure in the world we tend to attribute it to a mind, but it's actually not solid reasoning. the fact that some things which have structure are created by a mind does not necessitate all structure requiring a mind to exist.