Working on it bro. Shit takes time. Life emerges and when it does grab onto it. I try to not to judge myself. The more you let it be and try to become conscious the more you will feel alive.

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Fuck this one hit hard, I'd say a good %7

I am waiting for this book to come out. [amazon.com]

I am in this place sometime s but not so often now I am past 70 y.o.Something seems ot have changed maybe a bit more acceptance I don't really know - I have been a lot worse and have had quite few suicide attempts and have been in psyche units often but then life started getting easier /or I did.these days Iam nore frustrated about what is going on, and angry at it rather than depressed.

What i did was i made my job very important to me and i enjoyed it. Got to the point where my vacations were for health and i wanted to go back to work. The things i wanted to do on vacation werw the thinga that mattered to me. Visiting family. Traveling across the state to visit a friend. Work on my computer and motorcycle. I don't chase material things that much anymore and feel simpler and happier.

I struggle with depression too, though I'm feeling more alive the last few years than I have through most of my life. A big part of that I have to attribute to a life-changing illness, it kind of blew my life open in ways I couldn't have imagined. Good or bad, I feel so much these days,

I'm not sure. It's difficult to gague how alive one feels when one has narcolepsy. I'm half asleep most of the time.

I am alive 90% of the time. I suffer from anxiety and depression at times, but I have learned that your life is only as good as you believe it is. I see so much Beauty in the world and I search for joy. It is easy to see the bad and focus on the negative, but all that does is make you mad and sad and depressed. So making a conscious effort to see the good will change your life. Also make a commitment to meet people and make connections. This will help you enjoy life more. Human connection is one of the best preventative to depression. I hope my comments help, it has been a really long road to this place in my life. I just wanted to share what I have learned.

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