Fasting and money

Yes, I denied the scientific research teaching of evolution. That I some how did that, I know find embarrassing.

Of course. This is the religious way. It is the Pentecostal way. "Faith enough" might explain it all but there is not a defined meaning for "faith." It's a matter of whether you meld into the belief system or not. I studied too much and melded out.

Only my entire Childhood and young adult life. Now the thought embarrasses me.

I did not think that a God who supposedly knows all and has everything, would need anything from me. It never made any sense to me, even when I believed.

I did not think that a God who supposedly knows all and has everything, would need anything from me. It never made any sense to me, even when I believed.

I think the biggest thing I did to curry favor with god was to stay married to my first wife for 15 years, which is about 14.5 years longer than any sane person should have. I knew "god hates divorce" and that if I trusted him he'd make even a bad marriage good.

Like you, I was "only left feeling empty and ignored".

And of course, it's always Your Fault Somehow if what they tell you will happen if you do X, doesn't happen.

She's a ward of the state mental health system, and has been since a few months after I left. She never wanted to be in our children's life either. When our son died a couple of years back our daughter notified her; they brought my ex into the county mental health facility to make sure she'd be okay. Her caseworkers had no clue she even had children. It was a complete surprise to them.

That's the sort of person I tried to salvage a relationship with because god supposedly desired it. What a fucking idiot I was for Jesus.

Attending church was sacrifice enough !