While I fear death it is true, I fear that living to an old age a lot more. Especially if my spouse dies before me, he is the only one who truly cares and loves me and without him life would be so dim. I guess one might say that I fear living in a world without my best friend, my partner, my love.
I think old age. I don't want to get down & decrepit, locked in a body I can't control. Death I look at as the final great adventure.
I fear getting old and being alone. I fear being alone and watching everybody I love experience death surrounded by loved ones only for me to have a fate opposite. I fear never finding love and growing old and not having anybody to spend my final days with. I fear the pains associated with growing old and I fear the lack of time left in my life to do all the things I want to do.
Death is fascinating. I don't fear death. Nobody knows what happens when we die. I want my body to be recycled back to the earth. I want to be buried straight into the ground near a large tree and I want there to be a celebration in honor of my life. I'm excited for death and to learn what happens when we die.
But I dread the time it'll take to get to that point and all the unknown variables in-between.