The only ones I'm angry at are my parents and others who convinced me that the religious nonsense was true in the first place. They didn't know, and actually they might have been scared. I'm sure they wondered what happened to you after death. Not that we should want to die, but people are very much afraid of dying. If I try to study philosophy and other religions does that change the fact that gods have never written anything for you? If I follow the bible into 300 AD and see how it was decided what to put together and why, I've learned a lot.Then we get into that New Testament with 2 thirds of it's writings credited to a man who never met or never knew Jesus. Bible study takes you right out of the ministry and Christianity. BTW, "early church contemporaries" were not that at all. They fall in there somewhere at the 300 AD mark or just beyond.