I can’t believe... I’ve trued and failed a couple of times... have you ever tried? What weasel it like? How did you feel about the attempt?
I was raised Roman Catholic; church every Sunday, confession, communion, confirmation, even was an altar boy (did that for the money - if you served at a wedding, you got tipped - and usually very well). Never had bad experience with the pedo assistant pastor, guess I wasn't his type.
But I started studying the bible - and by the time I got through Leviticus, I was an atheist. I couldn't believe in a god with less compassion than I.
Nowadays, I am a relaxed agnostic - I don't know or care. And I intend to live forever or die trying.
I wanna believe, I don't believe but I hope I'm wrong