@SeaGreenEyez That is the one l can't get out of my head. She looks like she is napping. I have been up there. I have a fear of heights and the idea of jumping from there makes my stomach feel a little weird. She was so young. It is sad. I have personally known 5 people who have taken their lives, two l had played music with, and while l was shocked and saddened. I understood why they did it.

@SeaGreenEyez l have thought in the last couple of years that it might be the way l choose to leave this place. I'm not trying to be dramatic, but l can see since l had no children, that l could find myself so lonely, and with nothing to look forward to, that it is a possibility. It is the how l would have to figure out. I know it won't be jumping off of a building. I wouldn't want to go out in abject terror.

@SeaGreenEyez It isn't dark to me. It is a real issue. Religion has made it a taboo issue. If there is no longer anything to look forward to in life, especially if you are alone, what is the point of hanging around? Playing music is what l have to look forward to at this time. When that ends, who knows.

@SeaGreenEyez It is so important to have something to look forward to, whether it is a hobby or something like a career you love, like playing music for me, or someone in your life you really enjoy being with and sharing things with; otherwise you just exist, and that can get tedious. Knowing your situation, l do understand how you got in that frame of mind, but l do hope you find something or someone to change that. I sincerely mean this. You seem like a really nice person who deserves more than just going to work.

@SeaGreenEyez Even baby steps are steps. I am glad Mister Cat came home.