I think it's the primidone. I've been reading reviews and it seems like some people get increased agitation, depression, and by extension nightmares.

It was when I started the increase, because I'm tapering up slowly. So maybe once I'm balanced out it'll stop. Also I just got an order for cymbalta, to help with nerve pain but maybe itll help with the depression and nightmares too.

I think it's a combo of the primidone with the fact that my grandma is having serious health complications and that's fucking with my PTSD, and my aunts are horrible people and it's all just getting difficult. All of those are the perfect kindling for depression and PTSD and night terrors.

@LadyAlyxandrea I agree - constant increased worry is a definite trigger.

Even when I had them - that was the formula - it wasn't "just meds.".

Sorry your Grandma is still sick. WIsh your Aunties were being better people.

@RavenCT yeah I'm hoping the cymbalta will take a little of that down a notch. Switching to part time I won't be able to afford therapy again (not that I can now) and maybe having my ovary removed will help balance my hormones a bit.

I just have to put up with it until we can find an equalizer. Blech. I'll be okay. I just wish life could stop piling more shit on and let me sort through the pile it's already given me. Seems like every time I work through one issue 5 more pile up. Now there is even more drama going on on my other side of the family today and I'm like "seriously we JUST got done with grandpas crap now we have to deal with this!?"

Heck.

Just my muscle relaxer and antiepileptic