I've don't think I ever actually believed in a god despite being raised Catholic.
I lost faith in Santa before I was even four because of a mistake by my young parents and that planted scepticism deep into my personality.
Even when I see things that I like don't tend to believe it until I see it in several places.
I was angry about alot of this in my developmental years because I didn't have the language for my atheism and being forced to go to church and being punished for questing their "truth" and this when on through confirmation until I finally was allowed to stop going until 16 or so.
I realized around 20 how I was challenging their world view was largely the same they were doing to me and that you cannot push someone from faith. They only hold harder when they do. Atheist discover the truth so you can help lead but that touch has to be ever so gentle.
Now I'm trying to just live my life.
Trying to figure out how to get into politics because it needs more scientifically thinking people in there and alot of the US needs to see people that are good without religion.
I am open to meeting like minded people and the sense of community is the only think I miss from religion.