Intellect over Emotion.
I was raised Pentecostal. Speaking in tongues or being slain in the spirit etc was normal to me. I was dedicated enough that i named My son Christian. He was 4 when I decided I should know everything about my gods book. Long story but within a year after a long hate struggle I became the first atheist I knew. I've learned so much since. Now I study religion because it fascinates me now. Something I'm ashamed of not seeing sooner every day.