I know people think they care about celebrities, but, quite frankly, most of these posts on Depression and Suicide are stupid and triggering.

We feel worthless, exhausted, unwanted, unworthy, empty, and ashamed. All the time, this is our USUAL STATE. It gets worse, and sometimes it briefly improves.

Some of us were abused and bullied and know the source of the voices in our subconscious that push us down. Some of us don't know why. And IT DOESN'T MATTER to how we feel in the end.

Talk about it, especially with a STRANGER? Please, the people who were supposed to love me most, who were supposed to PROTECT me from the world, had no problem telling me what an awful person I was. My earliest memories revolve around my mother blaming me for everything that was wrong in her life.

And like every other little child, I believed my mother. Parents are supposed to tell us the truth, which is why we believe them about illogical beings like Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny. It's built in by Evolution, because it's usually a survival mechanism, trusting what your parents say without question.

And I've had plenty of therapy, thank you. I KNOW, on a cognitive level, that my mother's mental illness was to blame for what she said about me, that it was never my fault. But I'll never convince my subconscious.

The pain is always there. It never stops. So PLEASE, unless you know it too, take this as an opportunity and a warning from someone who does to STFU.