I came close to killing myself last night. Mental illness is like nothing else. Everyone questions how late so many do or Anthony bourdain could kill themselves. They have everything. When you're in the thick of it you only see the bad. You see the loneliness. You see how you hurt people. You see the cycle of negativity. Suicidal people don't always reach out for help because we don't feel we deserve it. Be vigilant with your loved ones. If you see troubling signs reach out. We often cannot. I'm now just processing my grandmothers death. I no longer have a giant Portuguese Jewish family. I now have a mom and a distant father and sister. It's so hard to accept. I feel guilty for all the times I didn't visit her. PTSD is a bitch. Hug everyone a little closer
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ezwryder
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June 11, 2018
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I tried to kill myself 8 years ago. I know exactly what you mean. You are 1000% correct.
stinkeye_a
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June 11, 2018
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I was reading another set of posts and looked over to the side of the page to find this. I am so glad you are still here. I have no idea who you are but I would be interested in finding out. I am not looking for a relationship so I have no agenda. Thanks for not ending what will become a great and beautiful person. (Will bwcomw) Sorry you already are you just have to discover it to be true.
dalefvictor
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July 31, 2018
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Brave of you to post! First thing, get out of the house and go into Nature. Second, meet people and find ways to help others. Third, when at home don't watch TV and do not go on the internet. Those artificial blue lights can cause depression. Exercise, read, and meditate, Etc. Be active!
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