In case you want an inexpensive, natural way to treat this problem, with no addictive elements or side effects:

"Doctors currently believe that CBD oil can affect the dopamine system of our brain, while decreasing symptoms of cognitive disorders like schizophrenia. CBD and schizoaffective disorder work through anandamide, a critical neurotransmitter in psychosis.

Results from studies point out that CBD can boost levels of serum anandamide, leading to the improvement of the condition. The formal conclusion of the research team was that “inhibition of anandamide deactivation may contribute to the antipsychotic effects of cannabidiol potentially representing a completely new mechanism in the treatment of schizophrenia5”.

Pure CBD oil (with little to no THC content) will work wonders on calming the nerves. Science shows that, despite originating from the same plant, THC and CBD interact differently with our brain, with the latter being a potent anti-psychotic.

Research shows that pure CBD tincture makes SAD patients more comfortable with speaking in public, even with a better reaction from their audience. One specific study published in the Journal of Psychopharmacology in Oxford a few years ago sums up that “CBD reduces anxiety in SAD and that this is related to its effects on activity in limbic and paralimbic brain areas2“.

On a more general level, you can also take CBD oil for panic attacks, extensive stress and even migraines.

One of the general causes of depression: lack of chemical balance in the human brain. This directly impacts the central nervous system, which is also known as the endocannabinoid system. When neglected, this system undergoes reduced levels of energy, mood swings and loss of appetite, among others. CBD aids in leveling all of these symptoms, without tightly binding the CB1 receptor and causing intoxication like THC.

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I have a sister who has the same dx, but a dual dx of addiction to drugs. It’s been a very difficult life for her and for us, the family. Worry can be so draining. Wondering if she’s ok. Trying to track her down. For the very first time after the last manic episode, and a year in a state mental hospital she said something she has never said before. That she never wants to get sick again like that. We can only hope she remains on her meds. She’s court ordered to get injections of her meds now. So she is monitored very closely. I understand this is a very difficult thing for you, and I wish you all the help, support and care you need to live the best life you can.

It takes courage to combat your insecurities. I admire it. Keep it up.