One thing that fills me with something akin to Kierkegaard's "Fear and Trembling", as a parent, is the thought that we only get one shot with our kids. There are no "do-overs" - like 'oops, that was totally the wrong reaction/approach/thing to say/ etc. I call do-over!'. Nope, doesn't work that way. It reminds me of something from The Unbearable Lightness of Being:
"And what can life be worth if the first rehearsal for life is life itself?" (- Milan Kundera).
If you approach parenting with a sense of great responsibility, then you're already a good parent.
Children are not that fragile that One Little Mistake will destroy them. They also have their own agency and personal responsibility -- and increasingly so as they get older -- so it's not all on you.
The main problem with children from my perspective and experience is that they don't come with guarantees and so if you are hoping for certain outcomes (in other words, if you have expectations) to recompense you for all the time, worry, effort and money involved ... even if you are the best parent in the world, you may be disappointed.
My son for example had a crippling personality disorder that was not my fault; indirectly, it ended up killing him at age 30 and (thankfully or sadly, depending on how you look at it), he never experienced a positive relationship or being a father himself. He had one love in his life, who broke his heart and used him, and he never recovered from it. That's not a happy outcome, and it had nothing to do with me or even the quality of our relationship (he was a devoted and respectful son ... a father couldn't ask for better). Basically my only indirect role in this was my lousy selection of wife #1, who was herself mentally ill and whose condition often results in children with the condition my son had.
THAT's the stuff that kept me up nights. It's actually worse than any mistakes you might make, which you can actually apologize for, not repeat, use as a teaching / learning opportunity, etc. But the vicissitudes of life, you have NO control over.
If your child is reasonably healthy and stable mentally and physically and you care enough to be concerned about parenting the child correctly, then your battle is 75% won already. If the child's personality is reasonably compatible with yours and you aren't in dire socioeconomic straights, I'd say you're almost home free. Your job is to just to do no harm, love them unconditionally, and make reasonably sane decisions along the way.
I agree. I do try to use things I come to consider a mistake a teaching moment with my oldest. But my main fear involves my 4 year old who was diagnosed as level 2 on the autism spectrum (after his last evaluation they are now saying he is "high functioning" ). I think he is perfect just as he is, but we do have a very regimented "program" to help him learn behaviors that will help him lead a happy life. And to discourage the more destructive behaviors that will make his life difficult. And our socioeconomic status is very limited simply because of the cost of his different therapies.
We have seen a great deal of progress with his therapy and our home program, but it is very rigorous and requires more discipline that I would otherwise engage in. So I always wonder if what I am doing is right and I have this looming fear that it will all be for nothing. I know it is not necessarily rational and I can usually talk myself out of it. But some nights it seems omnipresent.
@towkneed Well "it might be all for nothing" is potentially in the mix whether or not your child has challenges. And that's not really the fear. My son's shortened life wasn't "for nothing". It just didn't follow the hoped-for trajectory with the idyllic ending. I think the best objective is probably to make the most of what life gives us to work with. That sure sounds like what you're doing for your 4 year old: giving the very best you can humanly give. That's all anyone can do -- be present for the ones you love, while they're with you. Leave nothing unsaid or undone that you know to say and do. Love them unconditionally.
As for those worries in the dark watches of the night -- any good parent has those, and only a parent can appreciate them. You're on the right track -- keep up the excellent work!
Raising a child is a science experiment. You have to try many different approaches and theories. some work, some dont, but u r teaching your child that failure is ok. To many kids grow up today thinking that failure is the worst thing to happen. When you make a mistake share that with your child, it will help them be a resilient adult.
I disagree. I screw up all the time with my kid. And I think it's important that when I do, I take responsibility for it. No parent is perfect all the time.
I can't stand people who can't admit when they've made a mistake. So I model the behavior I want to see in my child. Learning how and when to apologize is a healthy relationship skill.
I agree with that approach. I don't mean I expect to be perfect, just that I am scared I might really screw up.