I was so looking forward to my solo fishing trip next week but have realised that I'm not well enough to go. I am physically and mentally exhausted. I stopped smoking a few months ago and have put on a few pounds and am really unfit. I also suffer anxiety disorders and depression along with severe sleep apnea. I have it all against me I guess but at least I can do something about it. The depression makes me just want to hide away and sleep but that way I'll just end up dead so I got up early this morning before it got hot and went for a walk. Just a couple of miles but enough to make me sweat. Hopefully I'll manage it again tomorrow and keep going until I can manage the gym etc.

Jon