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I live by one rule when it comes to depression. If there are more good days then bad I can make it through if there are more bad then good something must change but there is a problem with this construct. I can't control all variables. Recently I've been trying to change jobs and everyone always says just keep at it, the right job will come your way but we don't live in a faited world, there is no big guy in the sky to dictate what gets put in my path. So I keep pushing ahead and getting disappointed. I've fought for every little inch in my life, I mean that. Everything is a battle, every little thing. It's tiring and it's a part of my depression. It's the major reason why I try to guard my hopes but recently I neglected to do just that and not once but twice I was let down. I can't explain how completely crushed I was/still am. So the only question left is where do I go from here? When you can't force change, how do you cope?

Gypsy31771 6 July 26
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Going through some similar concerns with work, needing to find a new place (land lord decided to sell the house). For me, this works and I'm stealing this advice from a podcast i listen to:
Prioritize and Execute.
Plan: Line up the goals, what's needed, what can do you away with, what are the obstacles. Yup, going run into lots of dichotomies, but there is always a solution. I'm visual, perhaps write it down, on different pieces of paper, give them a weight or point scale (prioritize), move them around, build a timeline, pin it up on a large cork board.
Break the big goals down to small manageable goals, its overwhelming to think you can tackle it all at once. Without 'seeing' or visualizing things, you're in the 'dark' and that can be more daunting than going forth with no plan and lots of light.

That's actually the most practical advice I've gotten. Thank you

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Easier said than done I know, im just trying to help

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Self-love, ?
and a different perspective. If you can't change things around you, change the way you look at things.

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You get up and keep fighting. Remember Mom raised no quitter.

My mom's a very negative person, in fact she disapproved of my even trying to change jobs bc she thought I'd fail

@Gypsy31771 Prove her wrong. That will teach her a lesson about her Girl, now all grown up and independent. Good Luck. And do not allow anyone family, friend or foe to hold you back. This is your time.

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There are lots of people who cannot see the trees for the forest. When I am depressed, I know that this too will pass, I look at the good things that are there, no matter how small, ie, today I had something for breakfast that I really liked, etc, etc. Putting one foot in front of the other, just concentrating on what is at the very moment, not what is or is going to happen in an hour, a minute, only now matters. Sometimes we dwell far to much on the future. One of the great things in your life seem to be that you do have good days. Cherish those days and the memory of them. And yes when we are in a depressive state we cannot see any of it, so that is why it is so important to have someone who will remain us of it, and you have us. So when you do feel down and depressed get on here and we will be here, there are lots of us.

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You have to be kind to yourself as though you were your friend. What would you tell your friend if they were in your situation? Sometimes you have to take a break when you are feeling hurt or tired.

Keep in mind that your life is good only if you think it is good and your life is hard or bad only if you think it is hard or bad. Not to say you don’t have struggles, but it is all about how you see your self and your life dictates what your life is...

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I'm not sure I've ever thought of it in this exact context, but I certainly have faced something I couldn't change. I suppose I turn my focus on those things I can change, and... look beyond the obvious for other things I could change. I mean things that perhaps are not directly related, but could lead to the ability to change things that are.

bingst Level 8 July 26, 2018
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I just try to be kind to myself and do the best I can. I've struggled with depression on and off most of my adult life; learning how to be kind to myself when I'm going through a particularly difficult time has yielded the greatest benefit.

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