Christianity and family history, how many of you are thinking about that I wonder. My parents were mostly hippies and moved into the New Age, but when I was young I spent a fair amount of time with my grandparents, who were quite devout Christians.

Now that I’ve passed 40 I’m finding that a lot of those early occurrences are coming up again, and I’m having to deal with my share of my ancestor’s Christian heritage. It’s like a karmic inheritance that they have passed down to me, a clutter of beliefs for me to clean up.

It’s odd because other than prayers before meals and a crucifix above the mantelpiece (and the fact that they went to church on Sunday, which I didn’t do) not much of my time with them was spent on religion. But still I feel like their regard for it is not something I can easily ignore.

My investigations into the bible, which eventually led to an atheistic conviction, seem to be clearing up that tangle. But it’s pretty slow going, and I don’t feel finished with it yet.

Are you familiar with these kinds of feelings?