sorry to hear this.it sounds like we both lost some people today.i hope your life gets better.

Very sorry for your loss. Getting older is not easy in so many ways, and this is one of the worst.

Those we've loved will always be in our hearts! You can choose a particular anniversary and have a small, very private ''party'' with him. It didn't work out for the two of you....but it was apparently a lot of FUN and I"m glad you had the experience. What does Garth Brooks sing? "I'm glad I had the dance?"

Is this someone who is no longer in your life? Are you wishing to pay tribute to someone who has died or is no longer available to you? If so, is this for you, for him, or for others who may not have known about your relationship? Sorry if my question is too personal or too sensitive. I can see myself with the same quandary at some point.

Be happy for the good times and memories. If you knew his family and would like to you could attend funeral and offer support. If not, I there are several sites dedicated to helping grieving people. I’m sure are not the first to loose a FWB.
I’m very sorry for loss.