My family is spending a lot of time with me today to win me back to Christ. I feel like a rebel for even writing this.
Ouch! That's tough. I told my parents last year; they—fortunately—haven't tried to convert me back.
If feeling like a rebel empowers you, then awesome! You go for it.
If it makes you feel somehow like you're doing wrong, then don't let it distress you. You have to stand for what your mind has concluded, even if it is rough.