Why did I never even question it? The book, I mean. All those years, just accepting what man told me. Why would I not check it out for authenticity? The most important thing in the world. My salvation. We inpect houses, cars, clothing etc. Why would I not inspect my religion? It seemed so real. Until one day. My preacher/fatherinlaw mentioned that there were no contradictions in the bible. I wondered, what even LOOKS like a contradiction in my book if life? It only took finding 2 contradictions to convince me that a perfect god did not write an imperfect book. But I didn't stop looking. I found many hundreds...and then I began to notice god's character. I began making a list. 99% of what the bible itself calls evil, sinful, wicked....it has GOD doing! The book said we'd know them by their fruit. Not by 'good words and fair speeches that deceive the hearts of the simple.' It told us precisely what the good fruit was and what the evil fruit was. And then it told us WHO was doing the evil...GOD....I trusted this book with ALL my hear, soul, mind and strength. I would have died for it. HOW does anyone uphold this book? I did it ignorantly. But I am surrounded by people who KNOW about these verses and still uphold it. I find that scary to say the least. I would be ashamed to connect a good God with a book that has him doing the evil....