Just turned 36 on the 17th probably not going to make it to 40 with these fucked up thoughts that triggers my anxiety in a vary bad way! ah well we’ll see
Best to externalise them. They soon lose their power once they are out on paper or some medium. They might even be interesting enough to post here for some amusement or topical debate!
There’s a great group on here for Mental Health Support, once you can join groups. Good support there, from folks who understand.
Hang in there. I’ve been there and know it’s not easy.