Not sure if I told you all but my middle son has started working in the unit I helped commission? I am very proud. He is naturally a kind hearted person and good at de escalting situations. Unfortunately this is a crisis MH unit and he has encountered someone attempting to tie a ligature today. He handled it well. I am fighting every desire to run and save him. Its a very tough and sometimes dangerous job. I feel anxious it's too much.
Stand back and take deep breaths.
Also, from his perspective it's an intersting procedure, and something to be learned, a new experience.
Take it from the mother of a firefighter, he has some horrific encounters that are labeled " really interesting". If he does feel shocked or traumatized, my lad can always go and talk to the older guys, which he had to do once. It's a phase of turning into an adult, knowing when you need outside help, and he will have that through you when the going DOES get tough.
You are right of course, its just so hard.
You got to be proud of him. I'm sorry for your anxiety though, I don't know how would I handle that situation, or having a army, police, air force son...
I am massively proud. He is a seriously fab guy but the idea of him encountering these trully horrible situations worry me. He is a man though...I have to trust him.