Back in Summer 2009 at the age of 21, I was baptized after I accepted Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Savior in the Southern Baptist denomination. I thought this was the only way to life to what I thought of at the time. Two years later, I was struggling with my sexuality trying to pray away the gay and ask God to make me straight, but it wasn’t working. Then I learned that the Bible had been translated so many times by mankind when it comes to the subject of homosexuality and then I came to the conclusion that I’m gay. That was a huge burden lifted off my shoulders and there was nothing wrong with being gay. But I didn’t leave the church right away, because I thought if I did, I was going to hell, so I stayed for one more year. When the church started preaching about homosexuality negatively, I was sitting there deeply depressed hoping the pastor would just be quiet about it and he didn’t. That’s when I left that church. My then best friend suggested we go to another church and he told the church that I was gay, but I don’t remember word for word and that church said to him, “oh, we accept everybody”, which I thought was true. But as time went on, that wasn’t correct. I stayed at this church for about a year, I served on the Greeting Ministry until my pastor found out on Facebook that I was in a relationship with a man and he called me, asking me questions about that and I didn’t know what to answer, so he took me off the Greeting Ministry and told my team leader about this. My team leader called me talking about what she did when she was younger saying that she had an affair while worshiping God and I asked her, “what does this have to do with me?”, and she said “it has everything to do with you”, and went on to mentioning Biblical scripture condemning homosexuals to hell and I responded saying “I interpret the Bible in my own way” and “the Bible ain’t black and white”. She responded “no, you can’t do that” and “it is black and white”. After that discussion, I think I hung up on her. I was upset, then angry about what she’s done. She basically was thinking of me like I’m some kind of pervert which I believe is a misconception. That’s when I left that church and stopped going to church for a while after the stigma I received from the conservative churches on homosexuality. Later on, I started looking at more gay friendly churches to see what was out there until I finally settled on one that had a good amount of gay people.

As time went on as I attended this gay friendly church, I eventually got bored with it because of the same old rituals and stopped being a church goer. When that happened I started to become more of a non-religious person.

Fast forward to years later: I’m in the process of trying to find an identity when it comes to religion.
Read below where I’m currently standing on this issue:

I think I’m an Agnostic - looked at the Bible at Genesis, Exodus, Malachi and the beginning of the New Testament of Matthew to see if there are any dates recorded and they’re aren’t any, I used to believe Jesus being the son of God, but I don’t know anymore, even tried a silent prayer to myself to prove that there is a God and my response is they’re may or may not be, to looking at certain people like they’re sent from God, but thought again that may or may not be. I also realize that an identity of a religion or no religion at all can overlap, I do know that I’m not religious.

Any thoughts, feedback, or advice you can give me?