@Desertcactus Try

@TimeOutForMe Its hard, I'm constantly forced to question all my reasons for everything because of having unusual background, perspective and mental abilities. I'm always forced to justify things. I wish I could just live in peace for once. I supposed I'm getting depressed about it.

@Desertcactus seek professional assistance urgently for your wellbeing. You Matter

@TimeOutForMe Having trouble finding a therapist who isn't going to make slapstick judgements based on their perspectives of life that don't apply to me. I had a decent one before I dropped out of college again but can't access those options anymore.

@Desertcactus go through a social worker in your area. See if they can source you a few free sessions with an unbiased professional. You need to accept self-worth is hiding inside of you. You need to want that all the best