It just occurred to me that if I had stayed married, this June 30 would have been my 48th. wedding anniversary. That is beyond my comprehension: that era of my life was another lifetime.
Yes, I understand. If I was still married to my first wife, the thought sends my stomach into a shiver, I would have endured 52 years. I would not have done this as I would have committed suicide.
It's strange to imagine how life would be still married. I only made it 29 years, but over a decade later, I barely recognize the person I was who stayed in a relationship that was so confining. I'm at peace on my own now and experience happiness every day in my freedom. I'm no longer paying for the mistake I made in my youth. Happy on my own. I recognize my freedom briefly on my anniversary date which usually goes unnoticed in my mind, but I recognize it more fully on the day I actually made that first step toward my freedom.
I proposed to a lady 18 years ago. She said yes, then promptly ran away. I'm not sure how marriage works, but it's been an easy one.
@Gwendolyn2018
I could be mistaken, but it should be teamwork and involve love.
At least it's over, would have been close for me too with ex wife , thanks it ended years ago
@Gwendolyn2018 Same here
I stand in awe of people who are married to the same person 40, 50 or even 60+ years. I was married 36, but to three different women. 8, 23 and 5 respectively. And many of those years were not happy ones.
Next year I'd have been married 40 years. I will never regret the decision to end it. Yeah, I miss his money, but it was more costly to me to stay. It was a whole 'nother life.