Here in the UK the organisations you can be referred to are non-religious.

The ones I went to started with a call for topics members wanted to be discussed. You quickly discover that the alcoholics (and a few drug addicts) are not all dumb people and that a few are intelligent and highly articulate. You also discover that you can't get away with excuses or disimulation because they have been there and know if you are spouting rubbish.

I have not had an alcoholic drink for three weeks now and I do not intend ever to have one again. Yes,I know you will not believe me. I have given up for more than a year at a time in the past and gone back to it. Since I retired two years ago I have gotten through a bottle of vodka a day almost every day and I reached the stage of physical and mental incapacity. The first posts I made on here were made under the influence and in a state of total disregard for what I might say or who I might offend. I had a couple deleted.

It came to a choice - carry on and lose everything including my life or fight back. Yes, I get cravings - bad cravings - but I know where they lead.

@Nurse-Quantros your post strikes far too many chords. It will probably have to get worse before you are forced to make a decision one way or the other.

I have been straight and sober now for 34 yrs. although I enjoyed assorted pharmaceutical from Qualuudes to cocaine, by drug of choice as Scotch.After a black out I went to a treatment center in Atlanta. the first thing I heard that helped me was ' Your not a bad person trying to get good, your are a sick person trying to get well' It was a program designed for impaired physicians and was a 3 month program for laymen like me or 4 for physicians. Many of the basic pricipals of AA or NA were used but no emphasis on the god parts. I have also used SOS at different locations. for me the important parts are not being alone, accepting its a disease, accept you have this disease and cannot us any mood altering drugs.

I dealt with my problems of extremes one on one or I would be dead. your not too intelligent to be dead. being clever enough to know you have a problem and still doing it is called stupid.

I have a lot of non-theist friends who find that AA only creates more hassle than it’s worth to them. Recent studies have shows that there are options that work just as well.
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why don't you try a secular AA. Drop the religious B.S.
I found this for you Secular Organizations for Sobriety (SOS)
here's the link for the Rochester NY Chapter: [sos-rochester.org]
Time to heal friend....