OMG!!! I am a determinism guy now!! FREE WILL IS NOT REAL!!
Welcome to enlightenment. Approximately 50% of people that frequent this site are in the camp with us, recognizing that free will is an illusion. The other 50% think we're crazy for not believing in something that's so readily apparent to them. The crazy thing is that they are using the same kind of arguments and reasoning as religious people, and they don't even see the irony.
It is very awakening to realize that we have no control instead of forcing ourselves to do things.
Really and when did you feel free enough to decide that?
Beffore you do that you might want to listen to the latest Lex Fridman Podcast where he talks with Annika Harris who has been studying Consciousness and has a book out about this.