Hi guys ♥️
I have been avoiding like hell to make a real post for months and I am trying to bullshit u w tick tocks so at least to be present
First of all I am alive , I am fine, and all is well

So no worries pls . Unfortunately back in late august , I got what I deserved , stupidity has a price . One minute u walk and talk and ready to run the night clown show at ED , and the next minute , u are the show . That’s what happens to people who refuse to listen to their bodies , they think they are Superman , and they ignore medical advice and friends advice . Yeah . That will be this moron here . In late august I found my self dizzy , numb , and w a bp of 220/120. The fuck
Thankfully I was at work ( where the fuck else would had be ?. Bad choices !) and I received the best care immediately for what it was a TIA . All the scans ( brain , neck , echo ), all normal . Cholesterol more than normal as well . Heart has issues , that’s not news to me , and I do take med for abnormal rhythm . Anyways . I am fine , absolutely 0 deficits or other troubles , other than , once again I showed my ass to the whole ED , freaking out thinking “ that’s it , I am having a stroke and which one of u assholes are driving to my house tonight , my boys. MY BOYS “( the drama Queen show )
My boys were taken care great for 2 days by my work kids , I am thankful , omg guys , I am so thankful ♥️
The whole story left me w a lot of thinking , and that’s y I kept my mouth shut and my fingers down here on this site . I realize that I am not Superman , and nobody else gonna collapse bcz I won’t be at work
I have been running since 2020 february w very few brakes , and really , stupidity
So I step down from half of my responsibilities. I have trained the last 4 yrs some great young cats and I have distributed the load , the budget , and management requirements in a way that I can sit back and do my minimum 36 hr a week and go home and turn my phone off too . It took me two months and countless meetings w HR admins , and the support that I received for my decision it was really amazing . ( I got people calling me to tell me to go home every x they see me around more than I said I will ♥️)
I realized that I am not 30 yr old anymore . Fuck , not even 50. 52 since last month . And if I wanna make it to more , stress needs to go low . I got back to dedicating a day every week to volunteering w recreation department on ghetto nursing homes , that’s something that I used to do a lot b4 covid , it’s sad , but . Also very rewarding at same time , old folks need a laugh and I am a clown
My patients every night I work at ED is a Russian roulette deal , and I can handle that just fine for 40 hrs , I like what I do . The drunks , the OD , the nanas w the hips , I love them all . Even the hideous and rude ones , hey , it’s hard to be sick , trust me . But there ain’t gonna be more than 40 hr of that for me every week , bcz strokes are real , and the 80 hrs and 90 hrs a week ain’t gonna happen again
The pics are from late October , where my work baby cats took mommy cat to a little trip within the state and next door to maryland too . I look like a f ghost , but hey, love me anyways , no beauty contest here , who cares , right ? I love u guys . STAY THE FUCK HEALTHy ! Capish ? Nothing else matters , health , few bucks to eat / safe , your friends / family , the lucky of u that get laid good for u too , but remember : health first . And dogs . And cats . And whatever u got ♥️
Thank u Glenn and Vera for listening to my fears and thoughts the last 3 months , #wegonnamakeIt