"... but only the thing she wants you to be in her life." Very well said!

Hi, you are totally right, that is what I was thinking. She needs me more than I need her.

@Jolanta Sometimes you have to be a little forgiving. You never know to what extent the church may be manipulating them.

I have a friend who is quite elderly, nearly ninety. She had a best friend who she went to school with, and they were pals all their lives, never out of touch. But sadly her friend was born into a family with JW links and they got sucked ever more deeply into a fundi sub section of an extreme type. A couple of years ago, just before the pandemic, my friends old school friend passed away. But the family and the church closed ranks, and all non JW people including my friend were kept from the bed side, and of course from the funeral.

My poor friend who is quite frail and grew up largely secular, and therefore innocent of the ways of churches, found it all impossible to understand. Becoming convinced that they had had a rift for some reason she could not fathom. There were storms of tears, and questions asked like. "Why is she doing this, I wanted more than anything to see her before she died ?"

If the churches never did anything worse than keeping two frail and eldery people apart, to die more alone than they had to by nature, it would be more than crime enough.

NOOOOO. I have no intention to fit into her life, not giving my power away to anyone.

Well she thinks I am the 'abusive' one, boy has she got a surprise awaiting her.

Right on. I am not selling my soul to anyone.

@Jolanta Go on! I'll offer you two and sixpence for it!

So sad about that

@bobwjr Me too, but whatcha going to do? Maybe I’m more of a pain than I can admit to myself. I don’t talk most of the week with anyone and when I do they’re giving me change for something I purchased. It’s all YouTube and getting excited about science or politics or religion or art or programming but it’s not like I could share those things even when I didn’t live alone.
I’d love to share what’s on my mind but I sense no one is up for the experience. Which should explain my interest in Loki and Spock as a fiction fan. I’ve been called “mysterious” and “weird” a “nerd” and once a British Lady said I was “fay” and sometimes I can get five times the information about someone by just talking with them than they actually speak, and I was told it was creepy and asked if I was spying.
So alone is good, and I get along with wildlife better than I do other members of my own species.

@Willow_Wisp Hang in there sweety, just keep being the good person you are

The price of a used soul is three Donald Trumps and one Mike Pence.

On several occasions I've sold my soul to people for a few bucks. They thought I was being crazy and delighted in buying it for such a cheap price. "You're going to regret this so bad" they'd say. I'd just put on a serious, but ever-so-slightly concerned face like maybe I was making a mistake so I wouldn't scare them out of the deal. Funniest money I've ever made. I was basically stealing money from them while they thought they were super taking advantage of me.

You could not afford it.