I have a similar story. It started when I was eight and he was a teenage neighbor. It started in the woods, where he would often strip me naked and "play" with me, and me with him. Other times it would be in our bedrooms when our parents were visiting. It went on for a few years until he graduated HS and joined the Army. But I NEVER felt violated or "molested." I knew I was in total control, because although he said "Don't tell anyone, it's our secret." I knew, and I knew that HE knew, that if I ever told my dad he kill him. Maybe not literally, but all hell would break loose, so I knew that I held all the cards. I loved being naked in the woods and having his hands and mouth ALL over me, and I loved his "big" d*ck. Around that same time I absolutely fell in love with another neighbor boy, my best friend, who was only one a year older than me. I thought he was cutest, hottest boy I had ever seen! I never did what I WANTED to do with him, other than "show me yours, I'll show you mine." But I did get to kiss him once. On the cheek, in a dare. THAT was the highlight of my young life! His family moved away before I could get any closer to him, and that was the saddest day of my young life! All through school I had crushes on the boys around me, but of course, I never met anyone who felt the same way I did. Or if there were boys that felt that way they kept it well hidden. I was a quiet, shy boy who didn't really have any true friends after grade school. HS was 15 miles away in a different town, so I didn't grow up with any of those boys, and had no chance to hang out with any of them after school or weekends, when I was back to my isolated little town with so few other kids.

@AncientNight "I think that all sexual preferences, including the type of sex, is all inside of us from birth. Whether it's natural or genetic isn't in my wheelhouse. I just know what I like."

Absolutely! Agreed!

@Daco2007 YES...my friend also told me...hey...don't tell anybody about this...because my mom will get angry if i have too many friends up here in my room when she is not home. Y'know...all the kids in the neighborhood will want to come to play also. Let's just keep it between us...don't tell anybody. i said...sure, no problem. AND I NEVER DID...i maybe should've told one or two other kids though, lol.

@Daco2007 if it's inside us from birth, than it's genetic. Anyway : do we really need an "excuse" ?

@Nathalie_Quebec NO...we don't. I have a friend who needs to be drunk or high...he says it all feels better...well...that's his 'excuse'. When he's been drinking...he's very dominant...when he's high...he just expects his 'orders' to be followed...if you don't...no big deal...he NEEDS that excuse of...being tipsy to get himself in the mood. BUT...if you are honest with yourself...you do not need an excuse of any sort.

Yes! I have always been turned on by after shave, but not cologne!