I've done AA for quite a few years and became quite unhappy with rigidity and tough love attitude. So i searched for another way for a long time found myself happy with Refuge Recovery a Buddist path and Lifering a secular path.

Congratulations! I’ve got 29 days sober. Do it for yourself. Treat yourself kindly, and make sure you have plenty of chocolate. I can’t believe the cravings!

Well you found some great people here. Always good advice floating around.
When you tried 2 years ago, how'd you go about it? I'm just curious. Maybe we can steer you in a good direction.
I'm not a fan of AA. Although, I admit it was a bit of a crutch in the earlier days, but I'm not a believer in the 12 step programs. I prefer SMART myself, and like to use a lot of these message boards to interact with folks.

Hope you put yourself on a good path. Please ask any of us you feel comfortable with for support or a little info. Most have already mentioned 12-step and SMART recovery. If you are concerned about all the 'god' stuff in meetings we had a decent discussion about that in one of @mertheist 's posts. We've also posted some non-believer alternatives to regular 12-step programs: including literature. With you in the struggle. Peace.

Well drinking could be a symptom, have you done any thinking or therapy to find out why u drink?

Good to hear. Most of us need help with this to stay sober. At least during the first year. I tried countless times on my own and it wasn't until I poisoned myself with alcohol and stopped breathing that I was able to ask for help. I don't recommend this! I almost did not make it back , and I would not have had the last 19 years of life that I have been given. I went to outpatient treatment, it was covered by insurance. I attended AA for the first year only, I do not like AA, but they do help people get and stay sober. There are other sober groups out there too. Whatever you do, please get some kind of help. And tell everyone you know that you no longer drink. This makes it a solid commitment and prevents the occasion of someone giving you alcohol, assuming you still drink. This has happened and leads to instant relapse. No need to say why, you can make a joke about it. I sometimes use Robert Downey's joke, "I'm allergic to alcohol, every time I drink I break out in handcuffs". Sobriety is the greatest gift I have given myself. I wish you well.

it is a good place. I have given up drinking for about 10 years now and smoking and drugs but it isn't easy. falling off the wagon is better than stressing as that is the biggest killer. I damaged my liver drinking and still have the DT`s from drinking as it must damage nerves but I'm good with it. I found I had to change my whole lifestyle. drink should have a health warning on it for sure. it's definitely a gateway drug and not weed. weeds better and I wish I could smoke it but im one of the unlucky ones. I don't miss hangovers or waking up having wet myself or worse. you weren't born to drink and you have done it before so you can do it again. I found tobacco by far the hardest thing to give up.

This is the perfect place and telling someone 'outloud' is a great way to start.

You can do this and we'll be right here through it all so much asl you'll allow us.

I drank for 40 years..tried AA numerous times...still drank...for the past ten years I slowed down to 3 days a week..then two and now I seldom drink...got tired of running friends off by being mean....I like the sober me....and I'm a trusted friend to many..I have no answer for you...just good luck....living the dream at last....