I have much to write for this group but lack the energy at present to write a long winded post so I thought to just post short snippets of my dance with addiction. I found myself in the hospital after many months of drinking a case of beer a day.. and whatever else you'd put in front of me.. I had been hallucinating for months.. the intake lady was shocked at my honesty.. It's because I was done.. as I lay in the gurney I had an epiphany... If I were to have one more drink.. I would surely die.. I tell people that in my case recovery was fairly easy in that I was faced with two choices.. drink and die or not drink and live.. and that is the way I've thought of it ever since.. augmented some as after the 5 year mark I can have a drink on special occasions and not want another.. going on 30 plus years now.. so for me.. addiction equals death.. been up close to it with partners and refuse to go out of this world in that manner. I am not advocating that anyone do what I've done but for me it's a matter of making good decisions about your life and your health.. please choose well.. the power is and always has resided within you...