@evestrat Just going to give you example of what works for me. I am retired, the anxiety of my retirement checks been halted was ignored. Social Security = I paid and contributed for it. Military Pension = I earned with my service and sacrifice, Disability = service related to my service and sacrifice. What's worst scenario? I will have to go work. I will be pissed the first two weeks and soon the checks start coming in again. I will quit again. But I can't be a critic of someone in need of paying a mortgage like my sister or someone contributing to somebody's care. No matter how low you may get... If you look around there is somebody else wishing to be in your position. I remember once without a job, I am with GF in a mall outlet in PA. And this man about half my size with physical disabilities is doing his job emptying the trash containers in the food court and he was so happy that it did embarrassed me because I never been into bitching and complaining of my situation but I knew I wouldn't change places with him but I am sure he will with me. And then again... his happiness may had been more important than anything else in the world. So when I am very depress I write... been writing for 50 years. Is how I heal. Every human is different. I been very lucky and one day my luck is going to run out. I live grateful because I should not be here right now, in more ways than one. They will sneak in and you simply need to tell yourself... Not today... Not right now. If I bitch and complaint I just look at the mirror and tell myself... You are alive to bitch... what's the complaining about?