My grandmother- who raised me died on 12/23 thirty years ago and my brother was killed on December 18 a few years later. Both funerals were conducted on Dec 24th

Somehow supposed to make shit easier they said.

My grandmother's death put me in early labor so my son's birthday is a reminder and although my father didn't die at christmas, he was dead before another one came.

I lost my zeal for everything xmas after that. I made an effort for my children but once they were gone, I stopped. Now I do it a bit for the grandkids but all of that added to being in retail and seeing the ugly commercial side of it has made it a chore to get through

It will get better with time but I just wanted to say I feel ya and to offer the only advice I have: stay busy and work on getting through each minute. Don't look think about future holidays.

Im sorry for your lose. Hang in th there. I hope you find some joy un the coming days.

Sorry this time of year is hard for you. My ex was the same way until he was reunited with his kids.

My mom died on the 26th a few years back. It makes it rough.
Sorry.

Try to be happy for the ones who are here to celebrate with - but absolutely give yourself time to grieve and process. I wish I could erase anniversaries from my brain. Maybe this year. March sucks. I have 4 in March. I'd be willing to skip the month entirely.

Memories; Bittersweet at times,keep the good ones close,forget if possible the bad ones of suffering and pain. For me,tomorrow is Christmas eve,the 2nd one without my late wife,27 years flew by,but I have many years of memories,mostly good ones......