Coming to the conclusion that real love doesn't exist.
Love doesn't make you more comfortable; in fact, by design it tends, over time, to make you less comfortable (see Jean-Paul "hell is other people" Sartre). It just amplifies whatever you already have. If you think you have generalized anxiety disorder now, just wait until you're married.
Marriage not only gives you more of what you already have, it tends to give you a few things you didn't have, like children and a mortgage. Marriage can be wonderful (or hideous), but it will not solve your problems or make you happy. You can only do that for yourself.
I don't know if it exists or not, but you sound really depressed. I have depression myself, although after years of counseling, meds & some huge life changes I'm doing pretty OK. So I feel like I can recognize it in others pretty well. I hope you will take this advice & go to counseling or see a doctor. If you've already tried that & it didn't help, please consider a different sort of therapist. You don't have to be completely miserable even without finding real love.
I am currently seeking help with a social worker she does seem to be helping I can only peel back a layer at a time with her , I must say I am impressed that you identified that with me and I want to say thank you for your understanding.
Perfect compatibility does not exist. But a sufficient level of it does and so does true love.
No way: I love my dog, my mom, my deceased dad. I love live music,
Game over.
My thinking is if it did I would have long ago but all I feel now is despair and unwanted.
@AJimboShep82 Damn dude, I'll let you borrow my dog.