The more time passes the more i find myself at ease with love being a chemical reaction that merely compels us to breed. I don't mean to disparage relationships but it seems the notion of soulmates and romance has an inherently dose of toxicity to it.
Aside from the fact i seldom meet like minded people, finding a like minded person to date in this arm pit of a state is like trying find a source or self generating and perpetual source of energy.

My last relationship with a christian ended horribly. And as a result i may never meet my child. As soon as she discovered she was pregnant she left. And now not only am i severely distrusting of people...i fear what damage will be done to the child because to sum her family up as bible thumping zealots would be an understatement.

What really bothers me is she seemed fine with me being an athiest. Her family wasnt. In fact she told me they kept pressuring her to call ot quits with me.

And then she started pressuring me to get saved...and im at a loss is what is her and what was her families interference in what we had. So here i am. Writing this on a primarily atheist platform because i feel i have no one to turn to aside from blindly shouting into the abyss.