I broke out singing a hymn today. It kinda made me sad. It was my favorite song for so many years and it holds so many memories...but I can't sing it anymore, it just feels so wrong to sing about a God who is supposed to help you with everything and be there for you through everything when he doesn't even really exist. It makes me sad that this is what people are desperately holding on to and putting their hope in. It's a constant waiting for someone who will never be there for you, all the while the rest of your life is passing you by.
I guess maybe the hymn is a good reminder not to wait but to fight for yourself and others with your own strength, in your own time, and with your whole life. Maybe I don't need to be sad about that hymn anymore.
i don't like anything, not a single thing, in the genre commonly called "christian music" and yet i am awfully fond of some christian songs, such as i'll fly away, when i can read my titles clear, gaudete and amazing grace, not to mention the odd madrigal or wassail. i've never been christian a day in my life and in fact have had some pretty bad experiences with christians, but i happen to like good music. i know very few religious songs from my own heritage, but i do love the folk music of same: klezmer music. in fact i adore it. one of the reasons i don't like "christian music" is that, apart from its purpose being to promote something i find ridiculous, it doesn't SOUND good. just like most pop, it's just plain not good music. but good music is good. good music is transcendent.
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I went to Catholic school my whole life and was in choir. So you’d better believe that I sing all sorts of “Jesus” songs (in English and Latin) when the urge overtakes me to belt one out!
(I just make sure no one is listening, because it’s quite incongruent.)
True! I was hoping no one heard me or they'd wonder what had come over me. But Maybe alone I'll sing. I don't know
I, like most people, would love to have some big, strong, wise someone to advise and protect me, and supernaturally make my life turn out well. But it works out the same, since we have always been the ones making our prayers get answered, if they ever are.
We are the ones creating our own universes. Not fun, but gives us total control so we can't complain. Even though I do.
Very true words! I went through a time of extreme fear when I stopped believing in God. But somehow, now I feel so relieved to be in charge of my own destiny....even if things go wrong.
Be glad you no longer need it yet it still taught you something.
I think this is my conclusion as well....