I have two friends, deep happiness and social acceptance. They hate each other.
Yeah, I get it
But if you really feel this way, perhaps social acceptance has been leading you on?
It's been my experience that the fewer traditional ("acceptable" ) boundaries I let constrain me, the happier I am. Follow your bliss, @SeekersNeverFind.
What? Why? In 71 years, I have found that the happier I am, the more people want to be around me, and I am happy they are! And indeed, the nuttier I am, the more fun we all get out of life!