What! I don't want to go through two years of unhappiness!

Everyone heals at their own pace, just know that there are people that will help and listen,

It took me over a decade to peel back the layers of my Christian belief to the point where I could finally look HONESTLY at my motivations/need to believe in it at the time. But the pain was so real but blocked out, I couldn’t honestly look at the truth early on no matter how committed I thought I was to figuring it out objectively. I wish I didn’t have to take so long but that’s what needed to happen before I was ready to see things clearly. My human psyche couldn’t emotionally handle the truth all at once. It would’ve destroyed me. I had to do it a tiny layer at a time. But eventually I knew I would break through. I just knew I couldn’t give up. I knew if I honestly tried my best to question everything, including my assumptions, and created my theories from facts, and not facts from theories, every step in that process will bring me closer to understanding myself & the world around me. I knew truth would win out if that was my goal. I did that alone. Probably like many on here. But it’s great to have a place like this now. It’s encouraging to hear our stories of how we all got here.

Good for you. It can take time in some cases.

It takes a while to recover from any trauma. What may, at the time, feel like a complete disaster can open a vista of new opportunities.... but you need to rebuild the self confidence to decide on a new path and make the most of it.

My congratulations to you on your reaching a point in your life where you feel good about it and are happy again! That is no small feat, and I wish you many more years of it! I'm sure that everyone here is happy that you are happy, I know that I am!

Not sure how long you were together, but 2 years is fairly quick, I think.