I feel exactly the same way. As a child I couldn't bear to watch "Leave It To Beaver" or any program that portrayed a family where the parents care about their children.

My participation here has exposed me to stories of other people who were nurtured, and I'm able to accept that nurturing families actually existed. I'm able to let go of some of the feeling of betrayal and abandonment.

But that still leaves me as an incomplete person. One can't regrow a foreskin that was amputated in childhood, and neither can one grow a sense of self-worth or self-confidence when the essence of those traits was killed-off in childhood.

And I continue to be solidly rebuked (by some) when I express this story. People who were gifted with self-worth just say "get over it", but simultaneously can't explain how they attained their own self-worth.

I'm afraid the only alternative we have is to keep working on it, and be aware that some of our behavior is seeking to fill that emptiness, and accept that about ourselves.