Just got back from another family xmas. Everyone in my family is xtian except me, one
sister and her husband and my oldest. I don't want my kids to miss out so I go. And the non xtians (sis, oldest, brother in law) also go. It is nice to see everyone sometimes. However every year I go and then feel like an alien after. I can't say what I think without being misunderstood or explaining. I get bored with the small talk, try to engage, remember it's not a good idea, and end up trying to be quiet. And then someone notices and tries to draw me in and usually regrets it. Everything I say always comes out as either intellectual, vulgar, or inappropriate. Not because it is but because I am in small town Bible belt America. I usually end up trying to throw ball, football, basketball, kick soccer, whatever, with the kids that are there. I love them but I would honestly be happy never seeing them. But I guess that's a lot of families. I wish I could skip out next year but I won't. They will all act like they miss me. And they probably will. Until I get there.