Wayne, Google VIRTA. absolutely lifechanging, you will not be sorry!

I felt that way quite frequently in my late teens/early-20's, married to a guy who left actual scars which i still have, & strangled me, back before hotlines and shelters.
i got myself and the child and dog out and it was the best and most important learning time of my life, turns out.
I have been so poor i had to pick up cans on the roadside to buy baby food. (thank you Virginia for having bottle deposit waaay back then!).
My second husband left me after 33+ years for a woman who looked Exactly like his Mom in her 60's, but with her own porn site starring dogs and donkeys (mules? burros? IDK) run by her then-husband. The two lovers have recently separated...after she took him for every dime. Big surprise, Huge)
I have had a brain stem stroke, at age 38, 4 joint replacements plus 5 other major surgeries and got ''imminently'' fatal Congestive Heart Failure from taking a combo of 2 diabetes meds. (Which you can now Google that you shouldn't take together, so thanks to me i guess.) Diagosed after i literally stopped breathing, an interesting event at best.........
IMO everythng else is just ''stuff''.
Can you be more specific?

What happened? Did you have a stroke or heart attack? Are you going blind? Are you helpless and cannot walk with out a crutch? All those things happened to me, but here I am Still cranky and opinionated, fighting everything that wants to keep me down. My animals help. Music helps. Not staying alone all day helps.

Seriously? What's happened?