Last night I had a nightmare that I think will haunt me for a long time. I was asleep in my bed in my current apartment and I woke up feeling that someone was in bed with me. It was one of those waking nightmares where your still asleep but everything is so real you believe you are awake. I felt someone roll over next to me in bed and I thought for a split second it was my ex bc he used to come in after I'd gone to bed, but he moved out a year ago. So my mind jumps to try to figure out who else it would be. I moved just slightly and they wrapped an arm around me. They are clearly a lot bigger than I am. I try not to move. Not to breathe. I know my cellphones on my night stand, maybe I can grab it and ...and idk run to the bathroom. Im horror stricken, whoever it is in my bed isnt asleep and they are wrapping me in their arms. One hand goes over my mouth. I instantly start telling myself this has to be a dream, it has to be, how do I wake up. I pinch my arm as hard as I can. I woke up for a split second but then im pulled back in to the dream. Black washes over me, I can't breathe.I keep thinking "im still dreaming just wake up" over and over eventually I finally wake up.

Its been a long time since I've had that terrifying of a nightmare. I had night terrors as a kid that only ever stopped when I moved out of my mothers house but this dream was real. I mean as real as a dream can be and I don't know what brought it on. Usually I can piece together something from a dream or nightmare to something that I thought about during the day or something I saw/heard/felt but this... it was stomach turning.

I don't know why I'm posting about it other than maybe that'll clear my head of it a bit, get it off my chest so to say. Any insights are appreciated.