I am about to lose my most dear niece to the evils of Ewings Sarcoma. I'm close to broken. She is 12 and deserves NONE of this. I'm angry. I'm sad. I'm hurt.
I too am so sorry. It is near unbearable to watch an innocent loosing the battle. My hear goes out to you and your family.
I'm sorry about your niece. Really. She of course doesn't DESERVE it, any more than I or you deserve to be healthy. We didn't DESERVE to be born, and when the time comes, we won't deserve to die. Nobody DESERVES anything. But I AM sorry. It's a very cruel, heartless world.
The thing that I can most relate to in your post, besides the agony you’re feeling, is the “broken” feeling. Also for me there is some rage. I woke up to a dead husband, the love of my life, two years ago in April. Not expected. I’ve lost mom, favorite Auntie, cousin, good friend, my daddy died this Christmas Eve, and three dearly beloved pets. I rage at death sometimes. Sometimes, like you say, I am just broken and crumbling.
My main advice Ken is grieve like you need to. Don’t let anyone tell you there’s a time limit on grief, or “you’ll get back to normal soon”. Yes, you must carry on with the business of living, but you grieve for you, your loss and your pain. I have two children and four grandchildren, I don’t want them to have to wonder for their whole lives why I committed suicide, so I won’t do that, there are many days I don’t want to live. I’m just learning to bear it.
I’ve never cared much for poetry or sentimental quotes, but oddly enough I came across these three just a few days after my husband of 35 years died. They kinda spoke to me. Good luck man, I hope your sweet girl can go peacefully.
***Grief is the last act of love we have to give those we have loved and lost. Where there is deep wrenching grief, there was great love.
****My grief journey has no one destination. I will not “Get over this”.
The understanding that I don’t have to be “done” grieving is very liberating. I will mourn this death for the rest of my life.
****My husband died. I don’t need advice. All I need is for you to gently close your mouth, open wide your heart, and walk beside me, until I can see in color again.
My most sincerest of sympathies to you and yours, the emotions running through you I have experienced first hand and still have from time to time. Losing a relative, child, family member or even a mere friend is horrible to say the very least and I understand full well how you are feeling.
so sorry to hear that - that is indeed a tragedy
Stripping all the omega 3 from the diet has disastrous consequences I guess. Auto-immune diseases are exploding right now. [documentary-streaming.com] my condolences
I fancy I've lost a lot of loved ones but one thing I haven't had to personally bear witness to yet is the suffering and death of a young child. I cannot even get my brain around this. I am so sorry your family (and your niece, of course) are experiencing this.
I am so sorry. That is truly terrible. Hugs