I’m confused about my beliefs on afterlife. One moment I believe in a heaven, the other moment I lean towards not believing in an afterlife. What do I do?

I do know this, I don’t believe in a hell as an eternal punishment. The only hell I believe in is the one you deal with here on earth. I do believe in a heaven filled with angels, loved ones and a mansion in the sky, but that belief is slowly slipping away after learning about heaven being a fairy tale to being filled with self-righteous religious fanatics. I’m almost leaning towards this view of not believing in an afterlife, but I haven’t fully believed it yet. It would be like this, imagine going to sleep and never waking up. Basically, you cease to exist and don’t feel anything.