Life comes at we atheists just as hard as any other worldview. I have an unwanted title now of widower. Sigh
I was married for 27 years(26 good ones) Cancer took her from me in Sept 2017, no kids as she was sterilized after her 3rd child with her 2nd husband. Finding a Woman without all the "Baggage" relationships create is not easy, so much abuse Alcohol, Drugs and just rage, boys follow their fathers example, if dad knocks mom around, the same behavior may happen when they marry....
Oh I am so very sorry! That’s awful! Sending comforting vibes and energy.
I am so sorry for your loss. I can completely comprehend.
My condolences, I joined three years ago. I am still grateful for the good years we had together. I found someone new about 6 months ago, so far so good. It can take a while to find someone new, even after you have finished grieving, so hang in there and take your time.