I feel your pain. I know, people say that all the time and seldom mean it, but...... I lost my beloved wife of 55 years December, 2018 to cancer and here it is almost a year and a half and I'm still grieving! I told someone recently, I cried every day/night for the first 6 months and now I'm getting better -- I only cry two or three times a week. Therefore, I KNOW what you're going through. Did I know you or your spouse, did I know the kind of life you have lead, did I know how much you loved each other, NO. But I sense by your writing what kind of life the two of you had and my entire being cries out to you in your pain. Sometimes even the smallest of a situation will trigger a memory which in turn brings on the tears -- and it can be something which one thinks is totally unrelated to the lost one, and yet, here comes the feelings in the chest, the lump in the throat, and the welling of tears! Though I feel for your loss, I cannot give any advice on how to 'get through it'. I can only send my feelings of support your way and trust that in those moments of sorrow, you will be able to remember that there are others far away who are sending their energy your way in hopes of helping you through those bad times. Never give up and always remember the good times in your past which the two of you enjoyed. Metta! Larry in western Kentucky

My anniversary was last month. I did better this year, but it’s still very hard to get through these special days. Sending a big hug your way.

The anniversaries are probably the most difficult.