Hey folks. I swear I'll never get back to sleeping normal. 2019 will be the year I sleep again ...maybe. I think I'll have to get a new bed. I have a sleep comfort in a queen. Underneath is like two separate single inflatables and it just doesn't feel right with one person! Anyhow, for 2.5 years I've tried being around people in a new town, and it's been fine. But I think now I feel like I want to be a hermit for awhile and move to a remote spot. Back & forth, up and down, left and right...yikes!
I feel for you. I had to resort to sleeping medication so I could get some rest. The only problem is that the next day I feel like I'm in a fog. I only use it now if I don't sleep for more than 3 nights in a row. It is so hard to function during the day without good sleep! I had a hospital bed brought in from the VA for Richard the last month he was alive. We set it up in the dinning room so he could watch TV. Once the VA came to pick it up I really felt a huge sense of loss, as that was where he past away. I still sleep on the bed we shared, and it feels so big and lonely now. I may get a queen size when I sell the house and move on to my next home.
I continue to sleep in the same bed. In a different house. To many changes. My 15 year old gdaughter took the bed and mattress that my husband died on. She's been sleeping on it ever since. It wouldn't have bothered me to sleep on it if it had been larger.
Hope you can sleep soon. I slept in the recliner for months, I now have a new bed in a new country and new people.
I threw myself into doing things and sometimes I like doing things I enjoy but other times like you I want to be a hermit. I guess we keep doing things till we feel a little better or what feels right to us. I hope you find what feels better for you.
But hope you do not ( like me) second guess everything I end up doing.
And lastly - I am So Damn Glad We have Eachother to say this crap and not hear snap out of it, stop dwelling. Until you lose your partner / You really do not get it. We get it and are going through this with you. Keep talking to us.
It seems every minute I want something different, too. I feel I need big changes to move forward. Hopefully you find comfort soon.
@Ron_R I seem to need to keep busy to prevent despair and anxiety. I keep creating new goals to focus on so I don’t spend time dwelling on how sad and lonely I am. I have no idea where I’m ultimately going, but I have to keep moving.
I recently resumed sleeping in my bedroom on the last month or so as I had trouble sleeping as alone