I know where you are at. Those "worse" days will come and go. They are hard to control. Time will help but it will not solve anything. What you are going through is normal. Most , who have never faced such sorrow, will not understandl. Don't worry about them. tend to yourself. Good luck.

She looks like a fabulous person, fun and someone I would have like to spend some time with, she's beautiful inside and out.
It's been 16 months since my lovely husband passed and it does get easier, be kind to yourself allow yourself to feel the loss, grief doesn't seem to be something that you get over, it's just that the waves of it get lower and you don't feel like you're drowning in the pain of it so much,
Big Hug to you x

There are no rules to grief. There will be good days and bad ones and that's okay. Cry when you need to, yell and scream when the urge hits you. Just don't hold it in, let it do its course. You're going to be okay and you'll move on when you're ready, just not today. Take care.

She looks like she was an awesome lady and full of fun.

It can and does get better, one ache is replaced with another....my wife passed 12+ years ago, have not had one day since, i didn't think of her...music, movies, family, pictures..but the ache of the loss was expanded with the loss of other friends, couples...and the ache of not being invited nor shared...one day another princess will come along to become queen to my king, but for now, i remember, i pay respects...and live for tomorrow.

Don't be sorry that you miss your wife. Today is the anniversary of my husband's wake, a year ago. It's sad but eventually the sadness passes. You can use your life now to honor her memory. Hugs. It does get better.